calumfuckmeup:

ever noticed that girls never complain about being in the friendzone????? its because they understand what it means when someone says no

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So… its my 18th Ramadhan at home, Alhamdulillah. I woke up at 4.45am-ish today but usually ill grab my phone and play it for awhile, waiting for my mom to wake me up at around 5.15am as usual and id pretend that i just woke up 😂 but this morning, she didnt. So i went downstairs, but i just sat down, not knowing what to do. I didnt even know why im numb, like im lost. lol, totally. after a good 5 minutes (finally) i opened the fridge but then (again) froze. i stared at things in the fridge, not having anything in my mind, i was so lost! 😭😂 only then, i grab a mug and fill it from water dispenser, going back and forth for hot and cold water, to make it suam. i saw balang kuih raya on the kitchen counter table so i grab one and without even realizing i ate 3-4 biji already 😂 then i continue my staring contest 🙄

END UP…. i went upstairs back, knocking on my mum’s door- asking for sahur like a child.

“Umi…. nak sahur…..”

“Alamakk umi terlepas sahur lahh! tadi dah terbangun dah” *kecoh kecoh*

I REALIZED I WAS SO DEPENDENT ON MY PARENTS FOR FOOD FOR THE WHOLE MONTH.

I never cooked for myself anymore, too used to wake up to foods and drinks served on the table, i just need to wake up, sit and eat. Umi would always wake up so early in the morning to prepare sahur for us.

Only after my mom reheat some lauk&nasi, i sahur like usual. (but in a rush ofcourse dah nak masuk subuh dah kot hahaha)

Im so blessed for my mom&dad, theyre the best parents, i can never be thankful enough 😭

abah isnt around for a few days… & i suddenly feel like writing this . every single day, abah will switch off my lamp and switch on the bed lamp for me. yup, everyday. it is not bcs ive already fall asleep, even if im awake it will still be him who will do it. why? well i actually been asking myself why too 😂 but thats just that. i dont know. . everytime when we are about to enter the house & after he unlock the door, he will open it and give me the space to enter the house first. he wouldnt step in first, thats just the habit. now that my brother is around, he’s the one who will always open the door but lol he didnt care any bit. he would just storm inside and even left the key at the door. then i hv to pick up the key & close the door. abah would never do that, never once. .

sometimes its all about the littlest thing, ukno

we dont always show love with big effort
jn i came to realization that
my
father
is
the
sweetest
man
in
the
world
.
ever.

im so dumb that i cant even see that in the first place. w the new situation now, i get to be around the fam more well to be exact, abah.

abah pick&send me to school, tuition, library & shopping mall

the smallest things i (finally) realized abah do was:

everytime i came back from school and enter the car, abah already bought his lunch AND his drink will always be on MY side of the car. at the first place i didnt even think of it and drink it anyway. but the third day i (finally 😑) wonder why abah put it on my side instead of his bcs it was empty??
everytime he wanted to drink i’ll have to pass it for him.
when the drink is almost finish, he’ll ask ‘nak lagi tak?’

& then i start to understand he wanted to make it easier fr me to drink & he’s willing to share

second thing is

abah will just drop me off @ home & then go back to work. most of days my mum had already come back from work & she is inside the house.

when i was about to ring the bell (bcs i dont have house key)

abah said no & give his key & WAIT until i give it back to him after i open the door

it was weird bcs mmm my mum is in the house???

THEN i (again, finally) knew that abah doesnt want my mum to go downstairs & hurt her leg to open the door

HE’S THE SWEETEST MAN
& I KNOW I’LL NEVER FIND ONE LIKE HIM, EVER.

after all, its the littlest things that matter ♡

#iloveuthemost #brokenenglish
#messedupgrammardontcare